If there’s one thing I’ve learned so far as a mom it’s that I will never figure it all out. Every single time I think I’ve gotten to the bottom of something- naps, feedings, car rides, dinners out, etc.- I most definitely haven’t.
I’ve also learned that if something happens to be going well, I should NEVER speak of it out loud!
A few weekends ago, I put Emily down for her morning nap. I felt so satisfied with myself because I had figured out the perfect nap schedule. I told my husband, “It’s so great. She’s been taking a 2 hour nap every morning and then takes a pretty long afternoon nap too.”
Five minutes later I hear”Na na na ba ba!”from the monitor. I take a peek and see a wide awake baby rolling around. Her “morning nap” had lasted five minutes and she was up for the rest of the day.
I made a rookie mistake. I spoke of it aloud and therefore jinxed myself!
So now when I think I’ve gotten a handle on something I NEVER say it out loud. I think to myself, “I’ve got a good thing going here” and move on. Then I let it go. Because if there’s one thing I know for sure, everything is always changing.
Every now and then I pick up the book Everyday Blessings: the inner work of mindful parenting by Myla and Jon Kabat-Zinn. It feels like each sentence of the book is packed with wisdom. Whenever I pick it up, it tells me exactly what I need at that moment.
Last night I read a passage that I found to be so beautiful and true. It feels especially poignant in this time as I grieve the passing of my grandmother. It read:
“Children embody what is best in life. They live in the present moment. They are part of its exquisite bloom. They are pure potentiality, embodying vitality, emergence, renewal, and hope. They are purely what they are. And they share that vital nature with us and call it out of us as well, if we can listen carefully to the calling.” p. 92
My sweet Emmy Rae and her two little cousins have been such a healing force in this sad time- not only for me, but for many family members as well. While I grieve the death of my last grandparent and feel a heaviness in my heart, I simultaneously celebrate the life of this beautiful soul who brings me light.
I had planned to post a new video every Monday. I missed this week because my grandmother passed away. I’ve been in a whirlwind of feeling sadness and grief, spending precious time with family and friends, and just trying to wrap my head around the fact that my last grandparent, the most amazing woman I knew, has passed away. As Emily naps and I have some down time, I figured I’d post the video I had planned to post on Monday. I bet Nanna would want me to.
Has anyone else noticed that there are a lot of judgments flying around towards moms these days? There is so much information, and therefore so much pressure to follow certain rules.
Internal mom guilt is real enough so having all this external pressure to follow certain standards can feel overwhelming for a new mom. Noticing this trend got me thinking- What was it like for our mothers? And, how about their mothers? Did they feel this pressure too?
Continue reading “Motherhood: THEN & NOW”
The piece of advice I heard most often after Emily was born was, “Sleep when she sleeps.” While this is an excellent idea in theory, for me it has been virtually impossible. Emily is now 6 months old, and here are the number of times I have successfully napped while she napped. Drum roll please…
Continue reading “The Myth of “Sleep when they sleep.””
I’m starting a new tradition- New Video Monday! I love making videos and think it will be a great way to start each week.
Today’s video is called Stripes! Striped shirt, striped onesie, striped yoga mat, striped pillows (non of this was intentional). It’s getting fun seeing Emmy move around on the mat now! Also as a side note- you don’t have to wear fancy yoga clothes to do yoga. This may mean your belly pops out a few times (whoops) but who cares!
Since Emily was born I can count on one hand the amount of times that I have had a morning go as planned. And guess what? Today was one of those mornings! I know it will probably not happen again for a very long time, so I figured I would celebrate by writing here.
By 9:30am I was able to accomplish everything I set out to do. I nursed Emily, we played, I fed her cereal and fruit for breakfast. Then I took a shower, and got her down for a nap (this one was huge!). Since it’s Sunday and my husband is home I was also able to bring Romeo (my Rhodesian Ridgeback and first baby) out for a walk, just us two. I’m pretty sure Romeo appreciated some alone time with is mama. Afterwards, I went out to get wrapping paper and a card for my sweet niece’s birthday party today. And to top of this chain of events, Emmy was still sleeping when I got home so I was able to write! I seriously feel like a superhero.
Even though all these things seem small, I feel so accomplished. I bet you others moms and dads out there can relate. It’s the little things right?
Side Note: I probably just jinxed myself by writing this. A morning like this may not happen again!
Emily reminds me every single day to be in awe, to be present, to just be. She is so pure. I feel lucky to be here mom and see the world through her eyes.