A few weeks ago I said I would be posting a new video every Monday. In theory it sounded like such a good idea! Life happened though, and the video goal didn’t happen. I do love making videos so will be posting them whenever inspiration (and the time to make them!) hits.
Here’s one I made yesterday. Emily has started to move and crawl so I know the time of having her lay stationary next to me while I practice is fleeting. I was glad to capture a laid back practice with my baby doing happy baby pose!
A few weeks ago my husband and I had a Baby Blessing for Emily at our new home. It was the most special and beautiful day. You may be wondering what a Baby Blessing is exactly. Well, we are not religious people so a baptism did not make sense for our family. We are spiritual and raising Emily with a belief in a higher power is important to us. We also believe family is the most important part of her life. So we decided to set aside a day to honor our daughter and celebrate her life amongst the company of her closest family.
We had buffet style food and drinks and everyone hung out for a while. Then we had a little ceremony. I had been nervous about this part of the day wondering how it would all come together, but it worked out perfectly! Everyone naturally gathered in a circle at this point. Emily had fallen asleep in her carrier so while she wasn’t awake for it, she was there!
First, I thanked everyone for being there. I was very emotional having lost my grandmother earlier that same week. The cycle of life was all too evident in that moment. I also talked about Emily’s name. We chose “Emily” because we thought it was the most beautiful name- it sounds like a song. And “Rae” has an extra special significance. We originally chose the name to honor my grandfather Renato who went by “Ray”. We knew it was the absolute right choice when we realized each letter of the name “Rae” was the first initial of each of my grandparents. R for Renato, A for Angiola, and E for Elise. I know all over them are watching over her.
Next my mom, Emily’s Mema, read a prayer she wrote. Mema is a talented author and has written many beautiful prayers. I hadn’t read her special prayer for Emily prior to the day so it was a wonderful moment to hear it for the first time. Mema printed out a copy for everyone and rolled them up into scrolls so we could follow along. It was a priceless moment! She also framed the prayer and it now sits in Emily’s room where we can read it all the time.
The ceremony ended with Emily’s Aunt Jamie reading “Forever Young” by Bob Dylan. I had searched for a while to find the perfect words for this event, and thought that this song said it all. Aunt Jamie has been instrumental in Emily’s life. She was there for me throughout my pregnancy and any time I have needed her advice as a new mom. She did a beautiful job with the reading and I think we were all teary eyed!
The last thing we did was take group picture with the whole family, our village. I will treasure this photo forever!
One other detail I want to mention is the little wish box I had out (photo below). I asked everyone to write a special wish for Emily to read one day. I think the words she received will mean so much to her when she is older.
And that was that! From there we all enjoyed some cake and hung out for a while. I will never forget that day and am so happy we pulled it together after a very difficult week mourning my grandmother. My sweet Emily Rae has officially been welcomed into the world by her incredible family.
I am amazed by the amount of brain power, time and energy involved in packing for a weekend away with a baby! No longer can I just throw a few things in a suitcase and go. Oh no, now I must plan out each day and how each day may go meticulously. And even then, with all that effort, I’m bound to forget something!
This is a summary of what happens in my mind the days leading up to a weekend away.
“Okay so she needs…Clothes, PJs, sleep sacks, pack n play, sheets for pack n play, sound machine, monitor, diapers, wipes, toys, more diapers. Also bathing suits, swim diapers, a sun hat, pacifiers, food for breakfast lunch and dinner. Baby sun tan lotion. Baby spoons, bowls and cups. Baby carrier, travel high chair, breast pump and accessories and bottles. Stuff to clean breast pump, accessories and bottles. Baby travel bath, shampoo and soap. Baby comb and lotion. It may get chilly at night so some sweaters too. Hmm..Am I forgetting anything? Probably.”
Phew! Well so far so good. We made it out to Connecticut for labor weekend and it’s all been worth it. Even though my back is killing me from sitting in the back seat of our car between Emily and my 80 pound dog Romeo, I’m so glad we are here!
I think I sense an SUV in our near future.
I want you to know that I searched a long time for my purpose. Many times in my life I felt I was close to finding “it”- to finding the thing I was meant to do, the thing that would bring me great success.
I created and performed in a dance company, went to film school, wrote a screen play, made movies, and taught dance to kids of all ages. I found my voice in teaching and spread yoga to hundreds of children and families in New York City and abroad. I loved my work.
All the while though, something was missing. So often I would feel like “it” was around the corner. I was really close and would soon arrive.
Then I became your mom.
It turns out all those things I did before, all that prep work, has led to me to you. Raising you is the truest and purest purpose I have ever felt. There is a confidence deep inside of me that has been sleeping all these years and it suddenly it woke up.
This place, this “It” is better than I ever could have imagined. And it’s all because of you.
Emily is teething and missed a nap so wasn’t feeling well. Usually when I put her in the carrier she falls asleep peacefully. I decided to try it out and film practicing yoga while wearing her.
It didn’t turn out as planned. She didn’t want me to do poses, she wanted me to stop and just be. When she began fussing I thought I should stop filming but then thought, “no- this IS yoga.”
The time that Emily needs me in this way- to hold her as she sleeps- is limited. My yoga practice helps me stay present and take in the beauty of NOW. And right now my life isn’t about the fancy poses. It’s about being a mom to my beautiful girl.